Attention all single ladies !
After nearly two years of the dating game and hopeless tinder hookups I’ve finally come to the conclusion that the late nights , hangovers and waste of time is nothing more than damaging to my self esteem.
Watching Bridget Jones latest movie , alone on a Saturday night was some what a wake up call. I enjoyed the wave of contentment and sparkle of solitude. A hilarious , girly romantic comedy was long overdue! Stuffing my face with chocolate and chips in my daggy pjs never felt more comfortable.
I guess this reminded me , Im living my own story. Why am I wasting my time searching for someone to complete or excite my life? I can do it on my own , the rest will work out in time. I’ve realised how much energy I have been using thinking about others and forming expectations of happiness in comparison to society.
I was questioning myself as to why all this dating was getting me nowhere , why I couldn’t further these connections. So I dug deep. Listened to my gut. I thought to myself , well I’m not putting myself first and during the process chipping away at my confidence. Im screaming desperado and insecurities. Like a wild chihuahua on heat in search for a mate.
THATS NOT ATTRACTIVE. Makes sense right?
Also I wouldn’t like anyone who actually likes those qualities in me. I wasn’t at my strongest mentality entering my last relationship , which proved years of ups and downs!
HOW COULD I FORGET!
Like someone told me NO MAN ON GODS GREEN EARTH WILL BRING COMPLETE HAPPINESS thats not to say love isn’t bliss and beautiful , but points out it is not the be all and end all. Relationships are not going to solve your problems, and would it really feel right having one just to fill a void.
So its time to refocus – laugh at myself – have faith in my future – take care of me , and live free.
We are all unique , but we are not alone. Single ladies need to flaunt independence but stick together.
My modo today:
“I’m Fearless & Ferocious MY LIFE – MY STORY “
Kortni Portia xx